It's Okay

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Have you ever waking up in the morning and feel numb? Ain't having any motivation for that day? Waking up and feel like zombie or some dead that had waken up just to walk around lifelessly?

I did and those feeling sucks!

For now, I'm living far from home and currently staying with two friends in a dorm and having those kinds of sick feeling and bad vibes early in the morning wasn’t really the most pleasure thing to start off my day. 
The whole day was like not okay and when others asked if I'm okay, I would found a smile and said everything's fine even if whatever I felt that day clearly shown on my forehead. Sometimes those bad vibes stay with me for days and I hate it, so much!
I hated myself whenever those sloppy feelings came to me. It felt like all my happiness was suck out of me, you know like the dementour in Harry Potter whom suck out those happy memories of someone and left them like a zombie.
There this one day, those kind of fe…

Appreciation Post!

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What's up people? I hope you all are doing great! :) This was supposed to be written and posted on Feb 18 but I was a bit lazy and got some stuff to be done. sorry
I got friends from schools, my neighborhood and now in college. I would like thank everyone of you that have stayed with me along my journey until now. They said it wasn't about who we know the longest but it was about who stayed when the world walk away from us. 
I really want to mention each and every person who has left an impact in me ever since I was a child until now. All the good and the bad made me for who I am today. Thank you for helping me, thank you for listening, thank you for making time for me, thank you for teaching me about life, thank you for being there when I need you. Thank you.
Me too wanna say sorry for all the bad thing I've done. They couldn't be rewind so I could only say I'm really really sorry. From the deepest part of my heart, I'm sorry for pushing…

New Semester and New Year!

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Hey lovely people on earth!
How you're doing? I hope ever and each one of you are having a great time and in the pink of health. I'm already on Chinese New Year and midsem break. Yup, I'll be finishing my matriculation on May and will be staying home or I'll get myself a job. Wish me luck :)
 2nd semester has been starting since December 10 last year. A lot of thing had happened even since and now we're already in the year of 2018! Can't believe that I'll be nineteen this year. Time do flies too fast when we're living in the moment. It's pretty scary to know how fast time flies. Then before we know it, life move on.
I don' think that I'll be ready when I have to face the upcoming situations; you know the adult stuff, losing the people around you and many more.
Enough with the emotional talk, I'm just wishing Happy 2018 and Happy New Semester! I know I'm late but it's better than never, right? May your life …


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Dear lovelies,
Just 3 more days before new semester. ARGHHHHHH. Why does 3 weeks need to be so short? I'm being too dramatic. Huh?  Aishhhh. Never mind, just gonna say, 
Dear self, have fun while you can. Reality is getting closer.
Truly,  Iylia

End Of Semester 1

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Hey lovelies!
Semester 1 is done! 
It has been days since I got home. Life's great and I got to watch tv and read more books. The truth is, I haven't start reading yet. Know what I mean? Okay, just ignore that. 
I did my best for final and do pray that I ace it even tho I have a doubt on Physics. Technically, I study really hard for physics but I got the LPS ( The Last Paper Syndrome ) I hate that syndrome. Arghhhhh.Whatever it is, the past is the past and the future is the future. The thing matter is we make the best for the presence.  
Sorry for not updating for  really long time. A bit busy and just don't really have the time. I usually slept early because of classes the next day. You know, to avoid myself from being sleepy in class and having a bad day. I could be really grumpy if migraine doesn't tolerate with me. My fault to always enjoy coffee so much.  I really sleepy right now, so night people! 

Lots of love, Iylia  

P/s : I haven't mo…


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم   I know I shouldn't have this kind of feeling at time like this; finals are just around the corner and I need to ace it but I can't help. He just show up out of nowhere during the Lantern festival night and it has been months since the first time I met him. 
 It was during the registration day and everyone was busy with registration. Pictures for the ID card and some other stuff while me, I was busy observing other students and the new environment. Who wouldn't do that? You're going to stay at a new place and I know no one. 
 There was him, standing a few feet from me, ready to take his ID photo. He took off his glasses and fixed his hair. I stood there in the line, waiting for my turn along with my racing heart . Why on earth did I stared that day ? I took a deep breath and tell myself, I won't meet him again, there's thousands of other students there. He won't recognize me even if he look at me today. He probably gonna transfer to…

Going Back to Reality.

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Morning lovelies,
   Yup, its almost 1 in the morning and I'm not yet sleeping even tho my eyes are heavy as heck. haha. Just a quick update in today adventure or should I say yesterday. Nevermind, they're still one of my fav memory. 
 To sum everything up, I had fun! like seriously, Penang got its own vibes and I'm loving it. Sadly we only got to spend 1 whole day just because aunty let me finish the designing stuff I need to finish the day before. Proudly saying, I finished it in a day! Okay, I'm joking. It has been week, just doing some little touch up here and there, adding some other design. The usual stuff. Just relaxing and finishing assignments and designs. haishh. haha
  Whatever it is, I'm happy with my little work and I do hope they feel the same but why do I have this kind of feeling that it won't go the way I want it to be. Life and its up and down.

Let's forget the unproductive day. I'm rushing right now since my e…